A random... Obnoxious rant ahead, so avoid it at all cost.
Now that you've crossed the line, suffer my rant/wrath. I'm pretty ready to quit this job, but I'm not quite sure how to approach my supervisor about this. I think I shouldn't bother picking up my uniforms tomorrow, but since it might rain... It would be a good idea to pick up my work gear... Even though I might stay for another 2 weeks or so. I had been really stressed out about this job. Not only because I have to wake up at 4 in the morning and be at work by 5:50 on the dot... I also have to figure out how I'm going to get home everyday and the amount of BS I have to put up with my brother. He's the main source of my stress.
I spent the first 3 days of work crying every night, since he can only be an obnoxious, whining asshole about it. He was the one who told me to shoot for the job and I got it. Then he said he would drive me to work, but ended up whining and bitching every-single-day. Threatened not to drive me to work anymore, took his anger out on me EVERY-SINGLE-DAY, and act nothing but a child. He's hiting his mid-twenties, he's not a child anymore, but he presents himself like one, he acts like one and he seriously NEEDS anger management. The first day I came home from work, he told me to go online to find another job! A job that's NOT within my power (Design-Build? I can't do it. I physically cannot handle it.) and a job that's half an hour FARTHER away from my current one. I didn't want a job that's an hour and half away from where I live, in the middle of the boondock. And, I don't want to work for someone I knew, someone I cannot stand. Then he got pissed off at me. Pissed off at me for having my own thoughts and opinions. The stress and pressure from work is nothing compared to the idiotic stress and comments he gives me practically everyday.
Ever since last year, I've been handling stress very poorly. I was able to handle a tremendous amount of stress until I can't deal with it anymore, then I broke. It took me 20 odd years to go through the angsty teenage phrase that I missed during high school. I got to say, I was pretty proud of myself for holding for that long. Just a couple days ago, I read a question floating around the ToS forum, "What's your greatest accomplishment?" I thought about it then I refrained myself from answering it. The only thing that popped into my head was, "Haven't killed or severely injured someone." Sound like a stupid angsty teenage kid who tried to get some fame and attention, huh? I can't imagine myself killing anyone, I'm not sick and twisted that way. (That's also because I believe death doesn't justify everything.) But I could definitely see myself hurting someone if there's no consequences. A tremendous amount of hate for someone would do that to you. Well... A tremendous amount of stress will do the same to you too. I hate it. Absolutely HATE it when people take their anger out on me. I loathe it. It makes me angry, sick, disgusted. I know at times when I have mood swings and act somewhat hostile to others. But I'm not talking about a minor hostility, when these people take their anger out on me, THEY TAKE IT ALL OUT. I'm tired of getting blamed for everything, I'm tired of cleaning up after others, I'm sick of it all. People just seriously need to do some growing up and mature a bit on their own. 'Cause I don't want to deal with this kind of BS anymore.
Now that... Was a boring and obnoxious entry... Possibly quite uncomprehensive... I shall take my leave and head to bed... I can't believe going to bed at 9:00pm means "late". -_- Seriously need to get a new job.
Now that you've crossed the line, suffer my rant/wrath. I'm pretty ready to quit this job, but I'm not quite sure how to approach my supervisor about this. I think I shouldn't bother picking up my uniforms tomorrow, but since it might rain... It would be a good idea to pick up my work gear... Even though I might stay for another 2 weeks or so. I had been really stressed out about this job. Not only because I have to wake up at 4 in the morning and be at work by 5:50 on the dot... I also have to figure out how I'm going to get home everyday and the amount of BS I have to put up with my brother. He's the main source of my stress.
I spent the first 3 days of work crying every night, since he can only be an obnoxious, whining asshole about it. He was the one who told me to shoot for the job and I got it. Then he said he would drive me to work, but ended up whining and bitching every-single-day. Threatened not to drive me to work anymore, took his anger out on me EVERY-SINGLE-DAY, and act nothing but a child. He's hiting his mid-twenties, he's not a child anymore, but he presents himself like one, he acts like one and he seriously NEEDS anger management. The first day I came home from work, he told me to go online to find another job! A job that's NOT within my power (Design-Build? I can't do it. I physically cannot handle it.) and a job that's half an hour FARTHER away from my current one. I didn't want a job that's an hour and half away from where I live, in the middle of the boondock. And, I don't want to work for someone I knew, someone I cannot stand. Then he got pissed off at me. Pissed off at me for having my own thoughts and opinions. The stress and pressure from work is nothing compared to the idiotic stress and comments he gives me practically everyday.
Ever since last year, I've been handling stress very poorly. I was able to handle a tremendous amount of stress until I can't deal with it anymore, then I broke. It took me 20 odd years to go through the angsty teenage phrase that I missed during high school. I got to say, I was pretty proud of myself for holding for that long. Just a couple days ago, I read a question floating around the ToS forum, "What's your greatest accomplishment?" I thought about it then I refrained myself from answering it. The only thing that popped into my head was, "Haven't killed or severely injured someone." Sound like a stupid angsty teenage kid who tried to get some fame and attention, huh? I can't imagine myself killing anyone, I'm not sick and twisted that way. (That's also because I believe death doesn't justify everything.) But I could definitely see myself hurting someone if there's no consequences. A tremendous amount of hate for someone would do that to you. Well... A tremendous amount of stress will do the same to you too. I hate it. Absolutely HATE it when people take their anger out on me. I loathe it. It makes me angry, sick, disgusted. I know at times when I have mood swings and act somewhat hostile to others. But I'm not talking about a minor hostility, when these people take their anger out on me, THEY TAKE IT ALL OUT. I'm tired of getting blamed for everything, I'm tired of cleaning up after others, I'm sick of it all. People just seriously need to do some growing up and mature a bit on their own. 'Cause I don't want to deal with this kind of BS anymore.
Now that... Was a boring and obnoxious entry... Possibly quite uncomprehensive... I shall take my leave and head to bed... I can't believe going to bed at 9:00pm means "late". -_- Seriously need to get a new job.
