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I think I've gained weight again. I'm not the kind of girl who cares about every ounce on her body, after all, I love food. However, due to my recent schedule and the kind of work I had been doing, I felt hungry really early and really easily... In another word, I ate more. >_> And honestly, I think I don't need to gain more weight for I am already overweight. >_>; *grumble* Even if it's gonig to "right" place... It still sucks. >_>
Har-har-har... Someone just IMed me and said that he was some GameFaqsian but I told him I don't go on GameFaq and now he's flipping out. I think I'm amused, but I have to head off to bed soon. It's past 10pm, way past my bed time. Isn't it sad? By next week, I have to go to bed by 8pm. >_>
Nothing much is up, for those who go on the ToS board, I'm not mad. I'm not angry. It takes a tremendous of effort to get me seriously angry. I get pissed off easily, but I don't get angry. I know for sure it's because people are still able to find me and talk to me. If I'm angry, I'll drop from the face of the earth and no one can find me, nor would I talk to anyone. *shrug* Simple as that. I was going to post a new discussion question, but since GCN had done it already, I thought I'll let his discussion questions run for a while, then I'll post mine. I'll let everyone have fun with the questions for a while, they are pretty good questions anyway, so why not?
Aside from that... Chiko bought a set of new sketch books. ^_^; One can never have too many sketch books. I also picked up more pastels since I somehow... Can't find the original set I bought from Pearl Arts, and I hope to finish my "Bath Time" drawing one day... So I bought 2 sets. One "basic" set and one "Landscape" set. Hmm... Trees... And... LE PENs. _> Pens... Pens... Pens... *ish happy*
Although I wanted to post some serious thoughts on here, I think I'll give it a rest for the day. I'm kind of taking a break from LJ. I don't know, I just don't have the urge to post as much as I used to. On top of that, I just don't have the time to. *sigh* It's bedtime for the old lady. Oyasumi-nasai.
Edit: I'm debating, but I think I might be taking a short break from the forum for a few days, to cool down my head for a bit. I just read someone's new comment on a few things, and I'm trying not to get upset over some silly things. I've grew up and am old enough to think before I act. I've already made the tension on the thread bad enough, I don't need to make it worse. I know I am more than capable of doing so, but I gain nothing from it, therefore, I don't see the reason of doing it. One might think that I'm overreacting and I should calm down a bit. The thing is, this is not the first time and it might or might not be the last time. And in all honesty, I was hurt and I'm tired of it. I generally let it slide and brushed it off, but it happened too many times. There were numerous times where snappy (possibly sarcastic, which I can't pick up) comments were threw at me, and I can't respond to them appropriately but act stupid, in order to brush it off. I had previously mentioned and told him, if anything I was doing and saying made him uncomfortable, SAY SO and I won't do it again. So don't use that against me right now. However, I never knew if this is just the way how he jokes or not, it was unclear to me and it upset me a great deal. It's mainly because, it's not the first time, or the second time, or the third time, or the fourth time. It happened too many times. So many times to the point where I STOPPED talking to him on IM, it's because I CANNOT talk to him anymore. I am unable to make a conversation with someone just because all I get back is snappy sarcastic comments. Even when I'm asked for a "second opinion", most of my "second opinions" got blown away with snappy comments. I really don't need to deal with it right now. I don't want to make it turn ugly, therefore, I'm going to retract myself for a couple of days. I don't want a flame war, I don't expect others to get caught between the two of us, I don't want others to really get involved with the issues between us, therefore, it's best if I take the time to recover. Even for a day or two. And... If you guys are still reading this. I would really appreciate it if you don't bring it up to him or direct him to here. This would be my little venting sanctuary. And... If I have to work something out, I will work it out with this person. As much as I hate confrontation, I did it once in order to save a friendship, I could do it again.
Har-har-har... Someone just IMed me and said that he was some GameFaqsian but I told him I don't go on GameFaq and now he's flipping out. I think I'm amused, but I have to head off to bed soon. It's past 10pm, way past my bed time. Isn't it sad? By next week, I have to go to bed by 8pm. >_>
Nothing much is up, for those who go on the ToS board, I'm not mad. I'm not angry. It takes a tremendous of effort to get me seriously angry. I get pissed off easily, but I don't get angry. I know for sure it's because people are still able to find me and talk to me. If I'm angry, I'll drop from the face of the earth and no one can find me, nor would I talk to anyone. *shrug* Simple as that. I was going to post a new discussion question, but since GCN had done it already, I thought I'll let his discussion questions run for a while, then I'll post mine. I'll let everyone have fun with the questions for a while, they are pretty good questions anyway, so why not?
Aside from that... Chiko bought a set of new sketch books. ^_^; One can never have too many sketch books. I also picked up more pastels since I somehow... Can't find the original set I bought from Pearl Arts, and I hope to finish my "Bath Time" drawing one day... So I bought 2 sets. One "basic" set and one "Landscape" set. Hmm... Trees... And... LE PENs. _> Pens... Pens... Pens... *ish happy*
Although I wanted to post some serious thoughts on here, I think I'll give it a rest for the day. I'm kind of taking a break from LJ. I don't know, I just don't have the urge to post as much as I used to. On top of that, I just don't have the time to. *sigh* It's bedtime for the old lady. Oyasumi-nasai.
Edit: I'm debating, but I think I might be taking a short break from the forum for a few days, to cool down my head for a bit. I just read someone's new comment on a few things, and I'm trying not to get upset over some silly things. I've grew up and am old enough to think before I act. I've already made the tension on the thread bad enough, I don't need to make it worse. I know I am more than capable of doing so, but I gain nothing from it, therefore, I don't see the reason of doing it. One might think that I'm overreacting and I should calm down a bit. The thing is, this is not the first time and it might or might not be the last time. And in all honesty, I was hurt and I'm tired of it. I generally let it slide and brushed it off, but it happened too many times. There were numerous times where snappy (possibly sarcastic, which I can't pick up) comments were threw at me, and I can't respond to them appropriately but act stupid, in order to brush it off. I had previously mentioned and told him, if anything I was doing and saying made him uncomfortable, SAY SO and I won't do it again. So don't use that against me right now. However, I never knew if this is just the way how he jokes or not, it was unclear to me and it upset me a great deal. It's mainly because, it's not the first time, or the second time, or the third time, or the fourth time. It happened too many times. So many times to the point where I STOPPED talking to him on IM, it's because I CANNOT talk to him anymore. I am unable to make a conversation with someone just because all I get back is snappy sarcastic comments. Even when I'm asked for a "second opinion", most of my "second opinions" got blown away with snappy comments. I really don't need to deal with it right now. I don't want to make it turn ugly, therefore, I'm going to retract myself for a couple of days. I don't want a flame war, I don't expect others to get caught between the two of us, I don't want others to really get involved with the issues between us, therefore, it's best if I take the time to recover. Even for a day or two. And... If you guys are still reading this. I would really appreciate it if you don't bring it up to him or direct him to here. This would be my little venting sanctuary. And... If I have to work something out, I will work it out with this person. As much as I hate confrontation, I did it once in order to save a friendship, I could do it again.
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A random... Obnoxious rant ahead, so avoid it at all cost.
Now that you've crossed the line, suffer my rant/wrath. I'm pretty ready to quit this job, but I'm not quite sure how to approach my supervisor about this. I think I shouldn't bother picking up my uniforms tomorrow, but since it might rain... It would be a good idea to pick up my work gear... Even though I might stay for another 2 weeks or so. I had been really stressed out about this job. Not only because I have to wake up at 4 in the morning and be at work by 5:50 on the dot... I also have to figure out how I'm going to get home everyday and the amount of BS I have to put up with my brother. He's the main source of my stress.
I spent the first 3 days of work crying every night, since he can only be an obnoxious, whining asshole about it. He was the one who told me to shoot for the job and I got it. Then he said he would drive me to work, but ended up whining and bitching every-single-day. Threatened not to drive me to work anymore, took his anger out on me EVERY-SINGLE-DAY, and act nothing but a child. He's hiting his mid-twenties, he's not a child anymore, but he presents himself like one, he acts like one and he seriously NEEDS anger management. The first day I came home from work, he told me to go online to find another job! A job that's NOT within my power (Design-Build? I can't do it. I physically cannot handle it.) and a job that's half an hour FARTHER away from my current one. I didn't want a job that's an hour and half away from where I live, in the middle of the boondock. And, I don't want to work for someone I knew, someone I cannot stand. Then he got pissed off at me. Pissed off at me for having my own thoughts and opinions. The stress and pressure from work is nothing compared to the idiotic stress and comments he gives me practically everyday.
Ever since last year, I've been handling stress very poorly. I was able to handle a tremendous amount of stress until I can't deal with it anymore, then I broke. It took me 20 odd years to go through the angsty teenage phrase that I missed during high school. I got to say, I was pretty proud of myself for holding for that long. Just a couple days ago, I read a question floating around the ToS forum, "What's your greatest accomplishment?" I thought about it then I refrained myself from answering it. The only thing that popped into my head was, "Haven't killed or severely injured someone." Sound like a stupid angsty teenage kid who tried to get some fame and attention, huh? I can't imagine myself killing anyone, I'm not sick and twisted that way. (That's also because I believe death doesn't justify everything.) But I could definitely see myself hurting someone if there's no consequences. A tremendous amount of hate for someone would do that to you. Well... A tremendous amount of stress will do the same to you too. I hate it. Absolutely HATE it when people take their anger out on me. I loathe it. It makes me angry, sick, disgusted. I know at times when I have mood swings and act somewhat hostile to others. But I'm not talking about a minor hostility, when these people take their anger out on me, THEY TAKE IT ALL OUT. I'm tired of getting blamed for everything, I'm tired of cleaning up after others, I'm sick of it all. People just seriously need to do some growing up and mature a bit on their own. 'Cause I don't want to deal with this kind of BS anymore.
Now that... Was a boring and obnoxious entry... Possibly quite uncomprehensive... I shall take my leave and head to bed... I can't believe going to bed at 9:00pm means "late". -_- Seriously need to get a new job.
Now that you've crossed the line, suffer my rant/wrath. I'm pretty ready to quit this job, but I'm not quite sure how to approach my supervisor about this. I think I shouldn't bother picking up my uniforms tomorrow, but since it might rain... It would be a good idea to pick up my work gear... Even though I might stay for another 2 weeks or so. I had been really stressed out about this job. Not only because I have to wake up at 4 in the morning and be at work by 5:50 on the dot... I also have to figure out how I'm going to get home everyday and the amount of BS I have to put up with my brother. He's the main source of my stress.
I spent the first 3 days of work crying every night, since he can only be an obnoxious, whining asshole about it. He was the one who told me to shoot for the job and I got it. Then he said he would drive me to work, but ended up whining and bitching every-single-day. Threatened not to drive me to work anymore, took his anger out on me EVERY-SINGLE-DAY, and act nothing but a child. He's hiting his mid-twenties, he's not a child anymore, but he presents himself like one, he acts like one and he seriously NEEDS anger management. The first day I came home from work, he told me to go online to find another job! A job that's NOT within my power (Design-Build? I can't do it. I physically cannot handle it.) and a job that's half an hour FARTHER away from my current one. I didn't want a job that's an hour and half away from where I live, in the middle of the boondock. And, I don't want to work for someone I knew, someone I cannot stand. Then he got pissed off at me. Pissed off at me for having my own thoughts and opinions. The stress and pressure from work is nothing compared to the idiotic stress and comments he gives me practically everyday.
Ever since last year, I've been handling stress very poorly. I was able to handle a tremendous amount of stress until I can't deal with it anymore, then I broke. It took me 20 odd years to go through the angsty teenage phrase that I missed during high school. I got to say, I was pretty proud of myself for holding for that long. Just a couple days ago, I read a question floating around the ToS forum, "What's your greatest accomplishment?" I thought about it then I refrained myself from answering it. The only thing that popped into my head was, "Haven't killed or severely injured someone." Sound like a stupid angsty teenage kid who tried to get some fame and attention, huh? I can't imagine myself killing anyone, I'm not sick and twisted that way. (That's also because I believe death doesn't justify everything.) But I could definitely see myself hurting someone if there's no consequences. A tremendous amount of hate for someone would do that to you. Well... A tremendous amount of stress will do the same to you too. I hate it. Absolutely HATE it when people take their anger out on me. I loathe it. It makes me angry, sick, disgusted. I know at times when I have mood swings and act somewhat hostile to others. But I'm not talking about a minor hostility, when these people take their anger out on me, THEY TAKE IT ALL OUT. I'm tired of getting blamed for everything, I'm tired of cleaning up after others, I'm sick of it all. People just seriously need to do some growing up and mature a bit on their own. 'Cause I don't want to deal with this kind of BS anymore.
Now that... Was a boring and obnoxious entry... Possibly quite uncomprehensive... I shall take my leave and head to bed... I can't believe going to bed at 9:00pm means "late". -_- Seriously need to get a new job.
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*falls over* Chiko is tired... -_- Chiko has another new story and drama today... -_- But first... Thank you to those who had been commenting on my journal entries... I can't quite... Get back to everyone... I have so much to say, but so exhausted. (Why aren't you in bed? Shhh!!!) I'll... Try to get back to your comments later, okay?
So today started off with much screaming and yelling... Not from my end. I did my best to stay calm. Everytime I hear the screaming going off, I thought I could hear something at the back of my head snapping, it'll go "pop". I thought I could feel something popping and the sensation would spread through my whole entire head... But I repressed it. I had to, in order to not make things worse. So despite trying to leave the house early, I barely made it to work ON TIME. If I were to tie my shoes right before I walked in, I would had been late. This whole "If you're a minute late, I'll write you up" thing was stupid. Especially when the clock is freaking 10 minutes early. And sucks even more 'cause I live an hour away from work.
Anyway... Work was... Okay. >_> I was rolling in the mud, I was really dirty and smelly by the end of the day. I started off shoveling... Shoveling with a shovel that's about my height... -_- I think I hurt my wrists a bit... >_> *slaps on Salonpas* It was just... Exhausting. ^_^; Everyone was tired because it was all physical labour. Anyway... So when I got ready to leave, I didn't get a phone call from my friend, who was supposed to pick me up. I walked to Wardrobe and picked up my uniforms and waited for her outside. (I just realised why I would trigger the Security Checkpoint everytime I walked through one... I wore Steel-Toe Boots.) I got out of work at 2:20pm and I got out of wardrobe... Maybe around 2:45pm? I thought my friend (whom I spoke to the night before) was running late. 'Cause prior to this week, I got off of work at 3:20, instead of 2:20. So I waited around for a bit, thinking maybe she was running late. I waited and waited and waited... I kept on calling her phone, but it only hit her voicemail. Her phone wasn't on. I thought maybe there was a reason why her phone wasn't on, but she was coming, right? At least what's what she said the night before. I checked my messages to make sure I didn't miss anything. No voicemail, not text message. So she was coming, right? I waited and waited. It was getting windy and chilly. (I had to work in the mist today, it was a little chilly out.) I called her at 2 something... Waited... Called her around 3. Called again in 15 minutes. Called around 3:30pm... I didn't leave a message everytime, but I was getting worried. She told me her grandmother had been in and out of the hospital, or I thought something happened to her... I was really worried, wasn't so much upset at her for notifying me if she can't pick me up. I was worried that something happened to her... At the same time, I was worried as to how I was supposed to get home. I was in the middle of the Boondock. There was asbolutely NO PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION around the area. It's a dead town when the park isn't on full operation. I waited some more and called up my associate from my other job to see if she could pick me up. She was heading toward Philly, and was an hour and half away from where I was... So I thought I would have to ask the Security where an ATM machine was, so I could get some cash to call a cab to take me to the nearest train station. It was past 4pm at that time. The Security asked a few people who came by the gate, to see if they knew where the closest train station was. Then some guy walked out and it turned out... He was my saviour of the day. *sniffle* He offered me a ride to the train station since he was heading off that way. I didn't care at that time about "not leaving with strangers"... I just wanted to go home. I made it to the train station JUST IN TIME TO MISS MY TRAIN! WAHOO! But I bought my ticket and sat around... For the next train. I managed to catch the 4:52pm train and got to my stop around 5:30pm. I was... So exhausted when I got back... I didn't go home straight 'cause I decided to meet my brother at school so we could go out to dinner... I got hom late... And I'm online late tonight... So glad that I don't have to go to work tomorrow... -_- And... I still haven't heard from my friend... I just... Want to make sure everything is okay... *sigh* I just don't know how I manage to attract all these drama... And problems with women these days. *holds head to hand*
So today started off with much screaming and yelling... Not from my end. I did my best to stay calm. Everytime I hear the screaming going off, I thought I could hear something at the back of my head snapping, it'll go "pop". I thought I could feel something popping and the sensation would spread through my whole entire head... But I repressed it. I had to, in order to not make things worse. So despite trying to leave the house early, I barely made it to work ON TIME. If I were to tie my shoes right before I walked in, I would had been late. This whole "If you're a minute late, I'll write you up" thing was stupid. Especially when the clock is freaking 10 minutes early. And sucks even more 'cause I live an hour away from work.
Anyway... Work was... Okay. >_> I was rolling in the mud, I was really dirty and smelly by the end of the day. I started off shoveling... Shoveling with a shovel that's about my height... -_- I think I hurt my wrists a bit... >_> *slaps on Salonpas* It was just... Exhausting. ^_^; Everyone was tired because it was all physical labour. Anyway... So when I got ready to leave, I didn't get a phone call from my friend, who was supposed to pick me up. I walked to Wardrobe and picked up my uniforms and waited for her outside. (I just realised why I would trigger the Security Checkpoint everytime I walked through one... I wore Steel-Toe Boots.) I got out of work at 2:20pm and I got out of wardrobe... Maybe around 2:45pm? I thought my friend (whom I spoke to the night before) was running late. 'Cause prior to this week, I got off of work at 3:20, instead of 2:20. So I waited around for a bit, thinking maybe she was running late. I waited and waited and waited... I kept on calling her phone, but it only hit her voicemail. Her phone wasn't on. I thought maybe there was a reason why her phone wasn't on, but she was coming, right? At least what's what she said the night before. I checked my messages to make sure I didn't miss anything. No voicemail, not text message. So she was coming, right? I waited and waited. It was getting windy and chilly. (I had to work in the mist today, it was a little chilly out.) I called her at 2 something... Waited... Called her around 3. Called again in 15 minutes. Called around 3:30pm... I didn't leave a message everytime, but I was getting worried. She told me her grandmother had been in and out of the hospital, or I thought something happened to her... I was really worried, wasn't so much upset at her for notifying me if she can't pick me up. I was worried that something happened to her... At the same time, I was worried as to how I was supposed to get home. I was in the middle of the Boondock. There was asbolutely NO PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION around the area. It's a dead town when the park isn't on full operation. I waited some more and called up my associate from my other job to see if she could pick me up. She was heading toward Philly, and was an hour and half away from where I was... So I thought I would have to ask the Security where an ATM machine was, so I could get some cash to call a cab to take me to the nearest train station. It was past 4pm at that time. The Security asked a few people who came by the gate, to see if they knew where the closest train station was. Then some guy walked out and it turned out... He was my saviour of the day. *sniffle* He offered me a ride to the train station since he was heading off that way. I didn't care at that time about "not leaving with strangers"... I just wanted to go home. I made it to the train station JUST IN TIME TO MISS MY TRAIN! WAHOO! But I bought my ticket and sat around... For the next train. I managed to catch the 4:52pm train and got to my stop around 5:30pm. I was... So exhausted when I got back... I didn't go home straight 'cause I decided to meet my brother at school so we could go out to dinner... I got hom late... And I'm online late tonight... So glad that I don't have to go to work tomorrow... -_- And... I still haven't heard from my friend... I just... Want to make sure everything is okay... *sigh* I just don't know how I manage to attract all these drama... And problems with women these days. *holds head to hand*
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So I got a call from my friend this afternoon and found out what happened on Tuesday. She didn't remember me until 10pm that night. ^_^; But it was forgiven... She had to deal with a stalker. Creepiest one by far. She even filed a police report on him and his fiancee came down to bail him out.
To make a long story short. He called her up earlier and told her that he and his fiancee (my friend's friend) was going to come down so they would meet up and hang out. Early that morning, my friend met up with him, only to find out he was the only one there. He started stalking her, went to her house, called her again and again, stationed by her house. She got scared, REAL scared. So she didn't dare to pick up her phone for the past 2 or 3 days, since he would call her over a hundred times a day. She's not too-too sure as to what she's going to do... She'll take a little time to recover from this shock and if he keeps on calling her, she'll have to block the number and change her number. Man. >_>a I just don't know how she managed to get all these stalkers... This one, is seriously, by far, the worst one.
To make a long story short. He called her up earlier and told her that he and his fiancee (my friend's friend) was going to come down so they would meet up and hang out. Early that morning, my friend met up with him, only to find out he was the only one there. He started stalking her, went to her house, called her again and again, stationed by her house. She got scared, REAL scared. So she didn't dare to pick up her phone for the past 2 or 3 days, since he would call her over a hundred times a day. She's not too-too sure as to what she's going to do... She'll take a little time to recover from this shock and if he keeps on calling her, she'll have to block the number and change her number. Man. >_>a I just don't know how she managed to get all these stalkers... This one, is seriously, by far, the worst one.
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Someone wants to colour my Brin x Chiko picture? I suck at colouring and I'm getting pissed off at it...
Secondly... I'll have to pick up more Copic within the near future... That is, if I have the money for them. I'm just wondering what colours people use for Skin Tone. (Especially for shadow. I always use E00 for base coat.) I never like the colours I used and I get fed up with them fairly quickly. Please let me know if you could... (You could just give me the code, which is the best way to do it.)
Secondly... I'll have to pick up more Copic within the near future... That is, if I have the money for them. I'm just wondering what colours people use for Skin Tone. (Especially for shadow. I always use E00 for base coat.) I never like the colours I used and I get fed up with them fairly quickly. Please let me know if you could... (You could just give me the code, which is the best way to do it.)
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Thanks to those who volunteered to colour Brin x Chiko! But... -_- I just want to warn you though, some of you might not want to colour it after you see it. I don't think it's bad, but some might not think of it that way... There, I'll give you a heads up and then show you the link. (You probably have seen it already...)
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It's up to you if you want to colour it or not. If you will, I really appreciate it. Oh yeah... If you're interested in colouring... Leave me a note, 'cause... There are some specific colours that are assigned to the characters... >_>a
Anyway, Daylight saving... T_T That means... I lost an hour of sleep/work/putz around. >_
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It's up to you if you want to colour it or not. If you will, I really appreciate it. Oh yeah... If you're interested in colouring... Leave me a note, 'cause... There are some specific colours that are assigned to the characters... >_>a
Anyway, Daylight saving... T_T That means... I lost an hour of sleep/work/putz around. >_
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I don't know why I was thinking about this the other day... Probably because my mother, once again, told me to stay away from this particular friend of mine. *sigh* But it's too depressing to think about it, so I'll talk about something more amusing...
First off... I'm so ready to quit my other job in Jackson... Oh yeah. ToT I had been so tired and dragging to go to work. I could barely get out of bed at 8 (I couldn't make it out by 7) this morning, to go to my other job. So one more week... Just one more week... *shakes fist* I just have to have enough guts to break it to my supervisor... ._. Wish me luck on that.
I remembered just a while back, when we were cleaning out our stuff, we came across to a couple of dress shirts. They were still... Fairly new since we really didn't wear them that often. Anyway, my brother can't wear them anymore, but they'll fit me. So I said, I'll keep them. However, since they were men's shirts, my mother commented that I shouldn't wear them. I blinked at her and asked why? She said that'll make me look like a "Tomboy". I blinked again and thought what was the big deal? Then I found out it was a slang for... Lesbian. *falls over* I just told my mother that it wasn't a big deal and I could deal with it. Honestly, I don't think people are looking at which way I button my black buttons on my black dress shirt... ._. And it was nice silk shirt too... The other thing was... *holds head* How the heck am I going to break it to my mother that even though I'm straighter than an arrow... But yet, I have MORE issues with women than men? I somehow... Could get myself involved with all these drama with women... More often than I would like? *holds head* (Not necessarily crazy/romantic kind of drama... But... Drama in general...)
Lastly... I'll try to work on the BxC colouring soon... .o.; I started it a while back, but I had been so busy that I just can't work on it. Just... One more week, then I could start relaxing for a bit. *looking forward to it* And then... Maybe I could start CADing and designing's Andy's backyard... Yes... Hard... Cold... Cash... I'll need some serious cash by the time I quit my job... ._. Yes... Money... Is... Good... *rubs hands together*
First off... I'm so ready to quit my other job in Jackson... Oh yeah. ToT I had been so tired and dragging to go to work. I could barely get out of bed at 8 (I couldn't make it out by 7) this morning, to go to my other job. So one more week... Just one more week... *shakes fist* I just have to have enough guts to break it to my supervisor... ._. Wish me luck on that.
I remembered just a while back, when we were cleaning out our stuff, we came across to a couple of dress shirts. They were still... Fairly new since we really didn't wear them that often. Anyway, my brother can't wear them anymore, but they'll fit me. So I said, I'll keep them. However, since they were men's shirts, my mother commented that I shouldn't wear them. I blinked at her and asked why? She said that'll make me look like a "Tomboy". I blinked again and thought what was the big deal? Then I found out it was a slang for... Lesbian. *falls over* I just told my mother that it wasn't a big deal and I could deal with it. Honestly, I don't think people are looking at which way I button my black buttons on my black dress shirt... ._. And it was nice silk shirt too... The other thing was... *holds head* How the heck am I going to break it to my mother that even though I'm straighter than an arrow... But yet, I have MORE issues with women than men? I somehow... Could get myself involved with all these drama with women... More often than I would like? *holds head* (Not necessarily crazy/romantic kind of drama... But... Drama in general...)
Lastly... I'll try to work on the BxC colouring soon... .o.; I started it a while back, but I had been so busy that I just can't work on it. Just... One more week, then I could start relaxing for a bit. *looking forward to it* And then... Maybe I could start CADing and designing's Andy's backyard... Yes... Hard... Cold... Cash... I'll need some serious cash by the time I quit my job... ._. Yes... Money... Is... Good... *rubs hands together*
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Pain
TT_TT In much... Much... Much... Pain... My body is aching all over the place, but I hadn't done anything too labourious during the past couple of days... ._. So I don't know why I'm aching in my arms, shoulders, neck, and lower back. (Okay, my lower back is always hurting...) On top of that, I feel like a teenage girl again... TT__TT That's not supposed to happen. Yupe. ._. You got that right. My chest is hurting like I'm hitting puberty all over again. Too much info, huh? >_> Well, tough luck, you just heard that from me.
Aside from that... No time to draw. I'm getting my behind kicked since I can't finish my BxC ficlet. TT___TT (Umm... For those who are raising their eyebrows at me right now... It's a cute little story, it's nothing bad. T_T) I had landed myself a part-time LA job at a local firm. I will be working 40 ~ 45 hours a week between my 2 jobs. Though I'll have to speak to my manager about taking some Saturdays off, there's just so much to do but so little time. Once my brother starts his second job, he won't be able to drive me to work in the morning, that means... I'll have to start walking to work~ The walk isn't too bad, it'll probably take me 45 - 50 minutes to get from my apartment to where I work. (Since it goes uphill.) Then I'll just sit there and click my way through work for 8 hours a day~ Weee~~~ >_>
So I had been insanely busy. >_> When I get home from work, I'm exhausted and just want to have something to eat, take a shower, and sleep. T_T; I do go online every night, but often time, multitask at the same time. >_> Oi, oi, oi. TT_TT
Aside from that... No time to draw. I'm getting my behind kicked since I can't finish my BxC ficlet. TT___TT (Umm... For those who are raising their eyebrows at me right now... It's a cute little story, it's nothing bad. T_T) I had landed myself a part-time LA job at a local firm. I will be working 40 ~ 45 hours a week between my 2 jobs. Though I'll have to speak to my manager about taking some Saturdays off, there's just so much to do but so little time. Once my brother starts his second job, he won't be able to drive me to work in the morning, that means... I'll have to start walking to work~ The walk isn't too bad, it'll probably take me 45 - 50 minutes to get from my apartment to where I work. (Since it goes uphill.) Then I'll just sit there and click my way through work for 8 hours a day~ Weee~~~ >_>
So I had been insanely busy. >_> When I get home from work, I'm exhausted and just want to have something to eat, take a shower, and sleep. T_T; I do go online every night, but often time, multitask at the same time. >_> Oi, oi, oi. TT_TT
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So without using profanity, I'm just going to call myself an idiotic moron. >_>
I lost my "Watakushi no..." original. T.T; Actually, I lost a lot of drawings since I had no idea where I tossed my sketchbooks to... ._. I was planning on redoing it, but I can't find it... And I'm really not up for redoing a sketch, just because I don't think I could feel for it again... ._. I probably should, but I'm not planning on doing it... *sigh* ("Watashi no... Is the KxA Locket drawing, if you can't remember which one that is. ^_^)
Before I forget... I want to thank everyone who commented in my last entry, I couldn't get back to each and everyone of you, but thanks for leaving a comment behind. I've been busy with work, but I have to be... I need the money and things are getting a little rough when my dad is being rather annoying about it. I won't go into the details since it's not necessary... >_>
So... I should be writing, but I'm not... 'Cause Plot Kitty said no one is after her little behind this weekend, she could drag on till the last second. And... I'm tired... ._. I had been really sleepy again, so I'm not up for staying up tonight and crank something out. Maybe I'll get more writing done when I'm at work tomorrow... T.T Who knows. Please don't hurt me? ;__;
Anyway, I did three rough sketches yesterday at my other job. Two of which are Chiko, one of her in a suit, the other of her playing in the water... Which is something you'll never see her do... >_> The sketch on the latter one is more... Definite, so I just have to fix a few things and outline it. (I'm thinking of outlining it with a ballpoint pen.) The last sketch is really rough, it's a picture of BCM (actually... MBC, in that order). BCM stands for Brin, Chiko, and Merid. I had a picture of BM in my hard for a while, but I never got to sketch it out... Well, okay, I lied. I tried and it sucked, so I gave up. So this new picture if one with the three of them napping on a couch. ^_^; I think it would be a cute little drawing, don't you think? Here are the links to the 3 sketches, feedbacks are appreciated~
Chiko in Suit:
[link]
Chiko in Water:
[link]
BCM:
[link]
I lost my "Watakushi no..." original. T.T; Actually, I lost a lot of drawings since I had no idea where I tossed my sketchbooks to... ._. I was planning on redoing it, but I can't find it... And I'm really not up for redoing a sketch, just because I don't think I could feel for it again... ._. I probably should, but I'm not planning on doing it... *sigh* ("Watashi no... Is the KxA Locket drawing, if you can't remember which one that is. ^_^)
Before I forget... I want to thank everyone who commented in my last entry, I couldn't get back to each and everyone of you, but thanks for leaving a comment behind. I've been busy with work, but I have to be... I need the money and things are getting a little rough when my dad is being rather annoying about it. I won't go into the details since it's not necessary... >_>
So... I should be writing, but I'm not... 'Cause Plot Kitty said no one is after her little behind this weekend, she could drag on till the last second. And... I'm tired... ._. I had been really sleepy again, so I'm not up for staying up tonight and crank something out. Maybe I'll get more writing done when I'm at work tomorrow... T.T Who knows. Please don't hurt me? ;__;
Anyway, I did three rough sketches yesterday at my other job. Two of which are Chiko, one of her in a suit, the other of her playing in the water... Which is something you'll never see her do... >_> The sketch on the latter one is more... Definite, so I just have to fix a few things and outline it. (I'm thinking of outlining it with a ballpoint pen.) The last sketch is really rough, it's a picture of BCM (actually... MBC, in that order). BCM stands for Brin, Chiko, and Merid. I had a picture of BM in my hard for a while, but I never got to sketch it out... Well, okay, I lied. I tried and it sucked, so I gave up. So this new picture if one with the three of them napping on a couch. ^_^; I think it would be a cute little drawing, don't you think? Here are the links to the 3 sketches, feedbacks are appreciated~
Chiko in Suit:
[link]
Chiko in Water:
[link]
BCM:
[link]
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Partners in Crime
Listening to: So Deep (Wire Mix) by Silver Tears. >_>~
Partners in Crime: (in alphabetical order)
![]( "akureikarasu")
![]( "ameumiko")
![]( "bbqbert")
![]( "difinity")
![]( "kat-najera")
![]( "magitek")
![]( "meisan")
![]( "silverwind9")
![]( "sno4wy")
![]( "wyndstar")
Obligatory stalkees:
![]( "athenatt")
![]( "kyre")
![]( "mayyeo")
![]( "paullung")
![]( "puimun")
![]( "saimain")
![]( "shimoda7")
![]( "wen-m")
^_^ I really should be working, but~
Oh yeah. ^_^; I just noticed, I know I'm a bum about my last kiriban... Which... I'll finish one day... ;___; Let's see who'll get my 3000th kiriban, okay? ^_~ But this time... T_T I'll have to reserve the right to draw whatever I want. ^_^;
Edit: Added more Obligatory Stalkees. ^_^v
Partners in Crime: (in alphabetical order)
Obligatory stalkees:
^_^ I really should be working, but~
Oh yeah. ^_^; I just noticed, I know I'm a bum about my last kiriban... Which... I'll finish one day... ;___; Let's see who'll get my 3000th kiriban, okay? ^_~ But this time... T_T I'll have to reserve the right to draw whatever I want. ^_^;
Edit: Added more Obligatory Stalkees. ^_^v
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